I have decided ...
I have finally made my decision ...
I will continue to row just for him ...

Continue Jeremy's passion for dragonboat ...
Continue Jeremy's love for rowing ...
Continue to live Jeremy's dream ...

I will keep on rowing just for you ...

"Row Row Row Your Boat ~"

Everyone is right ....

I don't have the looks ...
I don't have the height ...
I don't have the build ...
I don't have the car ...

I am just not good enough ...

What I can give is to do small little stuff which comes truely from the bottom of my heart ...
Is that enough ?

I woke up this morning ...
Thinking that it was all a dream ...
Thinking that it did not happen at all ...
Thinking that this dream feels so real ....
Thinking that it was really really a dream ...

But i guess reality kicks in at a later stage ...
Felt so upset that what happend last night really did happen ...
Sit on my bed for a long period of time trying make myself believe that it was all but just a bad dream ...
Can't run away from reality i guess ...
I have no choice but to accept it ...
It was so heart-breaking to know that my very good friend have passed away ...
Why must it be him ?
Why must he be one of the 5 ?
Why can't it be someone else ?

We were suppose to meet up after I have graduated ...
It was so near yet so far now ...

Such a promising future ahead of him ...
Why choose to take him away now ?

Felt so helpless and useless that I can't come back to send him off for the last time ...
How I wish I could abandon everything and go back to Singapore now ...
But just that there are so many things which I have not settled yet in Brisbane ...

I am sorry Jeremy ...