Came back home looking so confused ...
Went to this seminer at MIS Technologies Centre about the launch of their new course "Digital Media" ...
It was damn impressive ...
This is the course which I am looking for ...
I need to improve my designing skills ...
I need to build up my portfolio ...
I need a place which will teach me how to design a commercialised work ...
But ...
"Digital Media" is a diploma course ...
Who in the right state of mind would take up a diploma course again ...
Degree or Portfolio ...
Programming or Mulimedia ...
I really dun noe what I want ...

Happend to pass by HER blog in the afternoon ...
Glad that she's doing well ...
She touched on something which is pretty interesting ...
"is it that hard to be friends back with your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?" ...
Some time ago , someone asked me this question too and I told her that it's a myth ...
I mean that's my point of view ...
Some may agree while some may disagree ...
To me , I have already forgotten what have happend between us ...
And definitely ready to be friends with u again ...
But like what you have said , the problem lies with you ...
To be fair , I can't blame you for that ...
A year back , your "Hi" means everything to me ...
Everytime I pass by you , my heart will be beating so fast ...
Hoping that you would say "Hi" to me ...
In the end , You didn't ...
My heart would just stop beating and how I hope I could just find the tallest building to commit suicide ...
But now ...
It don't mean a thing to me anymore ...
You know why ? Coz ...
I dun deserve it ...
I came to realise that why hope for things which I dun deserve it ...
Seriously speaking , I believe in retribution ...
Just look at you , you got a nice family , caring friends & lovely boyfriend ...
What about me ? ...
My life is without directions ...
Everyday also dun noe doing what ...
Can't motivate myself ...
Still single looking for her ...
All these are karma ...
But trust me ...
I am changing ...
Taking our past relationship as a lesson and moving on ...
Improving to become a better person ...
Even criminals do deserve a 2nd chance ...
Am I right to say that ...
That's up to you to decide ...
But to me , if erasing my existence in your memory will make u a happier person ...
Just do it ...
Coz I dun deserve it ...
And most importantly , I just want you to be happy ...
Just like what you have said to be true to yourself ...
I totally agree with it ...

Back to myself ...
In my 21 years as Mr Sin Hon Peow , I had alot of regrets ...
But if I keep on dwelling on them , I can't move on ...
Let regrets be part of my memory ...
Regrets serve as a painful experience for me ...
I will let those tears flow in my heart and move on ...
Move on ...
Move on ...
Move on ...
Move on ...

To that someone ...
I just wana be your pillar of support ...
Share your ups and downs ...
Share your happiness and sorrows ...
Trust me ...
I am trying ...
Can you feel it ?