I was waken up by my Mum who asked me to go back to my bedroom to continue my sleep as I was sleeping in the living room . . .

Went back to my bedroom to watch JACKY GO GO GO and decided to check out all my friends blog to see how have they been these few days ... got a shock of my life when I was reading her blog ...

" I despise pple who do not let go of things easily. someone who can't let go of the past will not win me bcos they do not know the truth of letting go. EGO? tt wat sucks big time....emotional? HA! wonder why did i ever let myself be tangle with u. Friends? Fuck off man. U dun deserve my respect and never will u. I was right abt my gut feeling abt u all along. Juz another son of a bitch. Take it as i am blind to have ever trust u and think tt u r of a remarkable character. I hate U! n i always will....bcoz u juz sucks and u prove it to me thru ya actions tt u aint worth my friendship. i will nt waste nt even a mere second toking or looking at u. "

Was she refering to me ? Being a sensitive guy , of coz I feel that she was refering to me lah ... can't be blame lah I am that sensitive ... so I decided to clear up this misunderstanding and explain my actions ... I believe must be my post on 13th October which have caused this misunderstanding ...

" Notice the last 3 entries I posted ? Nothing special actually ... just wana post it up as it should be up here months ago ... wahaha ~! How lazy am I man ? I like the Name Analysis alot man coz it's 100% true !!!! The LOST WALLET entry was something which I read from somewhere . . . seeing that it was meaningful so I copied it down onto a WORD document and kept it in one of my folders ... found it when I was clearing up rubbish from my com ... Decided to delete the document becoz it contain someone's photo which brings me sad memories ... So decided to post it up to share with everyone ... The last one was something which was written by me when I was at the lowest point of my life ... Though it was not very well written , it express my feelings during that point of time ... "

As I have said , those 3 entries are nothing special which means that it was not put up especially to refer to that someone ... it was put up becoz it was meant to be here like 1 year ago or less ... what's wrong with that ?

"Decided to delete the document becoz it contain someone's photo which brings me sad memories " Let me explain what this sentence means ... it means that I decided to delete the document becoz I have just formatted my com and wanted to tidy up my hard-disk ... about the "sad memories" thing it means that it will make me very sad by seeing her photo becoz i will start thinking about the past and keep on question-ing myself with questions like "If I would have done this or that , such things wouldn't have happend..." Isn't letting go equals to forgetting everything ? Do you know that I kept all the conversations between her & me after we broke up ? I deleted all of them when I was tidying up my hard-disk ... If I have not let go of the past , will I in the first place delete all those stuff ? I even deleted all the SMS send by her in my phone ... If I have not let go , would I have talked to Rayner as if nothing have happend ? Isn't this proves that I have let go of the past ?

About The Love Race , it was just something which I written it when I was at the lowest point of my life and this was like 11 months ago man ... It was not put up to bring up the past but instead put up becoz it was written by me ... I wrote down alot of poems and short stories in my notebook when I was free and will put up some of them when I have finished editing them ... The Love Race was actually written down on a WORD document and I came across it when I was tidying my hard-disk ... Seeing that it was written by me and it should be put up in my blog long long time ago ... So I decided to delete the WORD document and put it up on my blog ...

I apologised for not stating my reasons for putting up the entires on 10th , 11th & 12th of October and I hope this entry will clear up everything ...

I hope that you are reading this entry and I want to say this for the last time ...
I have let go of my past and I bear no grudges against both of u ....